One day, I will see you walking down the street and our eyes will meet. We will look at each other with tears in our eyes and full of questions running on our minds. If you will happen to ask me why I let go of you, I will tell you that I loved you so much. I wanted you to be happy even if it has nothing to do with me. Without any pain in my heart, I will be hoping that you are certainly happy.
I will never tell you how much I missed you, how much I cried for you, how many letters I have written for you. I will never tell you how many times I tried to reach out to you but never had the courage to call you or send you a message. I will never tell you that I thought of you when I saw beautiful places and wished that you were with me. I will never tell you how I spent so much time in the gym just to forget you.
I will not ask about your new girlfriend and how happy you are with her because I don’t want you to see me crying. I will not admit that I never stopped loving you. I will never blame you for choosing someone else over me because I have forgiven you. I will never be mad at you because all I wanted for you is happiness.
All I can say is that I am so sorry. I’m sorry for loving you so much that I let you be with someone else who could make you happier. I’m sorry for giving up on you because it was too much for my heart that I almost died. I’m sorry if I never told you that I still love you because I don’t want to confuse you with your feelings for me and for her.
I will be smiling at you with ache in my heart. I will never get to spend the rest of my life with you but I hope that you get to spend the rest of your life with someone who will love you more than I did. We will never get to build our dreams together but I hope you will build yours with someone who will always be there for you.
You left a void in my heart that no one else can occupy. You left me with good memories that no one can erase. You gave me lessons that I learned the hard way. You made me a better person. You made me feel loved and happier.
I will always be thankful for meeting you and loving you. You taught me how to give a true love and that’s the kind of love that I gave you. Even if it was very painful for me to set you free, I let you go. I gave you the chance to find love and happiness with the woman you want to be with.
And when I’m already home on that day, my tears will be streaming down my face and I will write you one last letter.